Rambling

Advise of the day: Do never trust anyone.

People will always get advantage of you in the end. Believe me, if they were honest about what they wanted from you, this would never happen.

Then, there are those people who like to be fooled and keep trusting again and again. But it´s quite comprehensible... we all like to have that illusion that the world ain´t that bad... and that there even are some good people around! haha I once was like that... then, one day, I woke up and realized how the world worked and let me tell you, I immediately got very pragmatic. It´s kinda sad... I know... but at least I´m seeing the world as it is, I don´t have my eyes shut anymore as many people do. I don´t get desillusioned anymore. I simply now think to myself "Oh... that was coming ahead! I knew it!"
If I wanted things to be different? Oh yeah! And that´s why I never get confortable with the reality... that´s why I never act like the others do. I don´t pretend. That´s it. I´m myself. The others... well they´re playing roles that suits their goals... they´re happy like that... and they have to! Afterall... it´s those people who get well on life! Not the fools who keep pointing out the truth looking pathetic before the reproving looks of the people that call you "stubborn", "inconvenient" and so on. I tell you... everyday is a struggle for me. Everyday I get more upset, Sometimes I ask myself if all this worries are worthy... I don´t have to think much about it. My heart knows they absolutely are.

"But don't damn me
When I speak a piece of mind
'Cause silence isn't golden
When I'm holding it inside
'Cause I've been where I have been
An I've seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
'Cause it's all a part of me"

Don't Damn Me
Guns N' Roses

Whatever

I hate people and people hate me.
Hey! At least THAT is reciprocal! :D

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"Someday, everything will all make perfect sense.
So for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears,
and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason"

Unknown author

Taurus

I have never been someone to pay attention to astrology, horoscopes or whatsoever... neverthless, the following is a very precise description of my being, which quite surprised me:

• "Tactile and sensuous, you have a nose for personal comfort and physical pleasure.
  

• You are nevertheless quite pragmatic, with a good appreciation for the financial values as well as any aesthetic qualities.

• Taureans are very strong-willed and often quite creative.

• You are kind and generous with friends, with whom you develop an unspoken rapport.

• Taureans are good singers and musicians, or at least, love music.

• You tend to be rather subdued, but you have a fine sense of humour, and enjoy your social life.

• Down to earth, a no-nonsense approach, saying what they mean with a very strong sense of values.

• Their mind is closed to new ideas and a certain unwillingness to change, determined and do not buckle under pressure and adversity.

• They are also extremely patient, and dependable along the way.

• Patient, loyal, caring, shy and reserved, taureans are slow to anger but once annoyed, they will rage and turn ferocious and unstoppable.

• They are stubborn, carrying this trait to all spheres in life, thereby, in a way, closing the options for a better life.

• Taureans love to reap the rewards.

• They simply want to get things done, and it is that steady, dogged persistence which begets the nickname 'stubborn'.

• Their strength is in their stability, loyalty and dogged determination. They want to get the job done, and they will."

so true...

Heart of Gold

"I want to live,
I want to give
Ive been a miner for a heart of gold.
Its these expressions I never give
That keep me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Keeps me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old."

Heart of Gold
Neil Young

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Now playing: Pearl Jam - MFC
via FoxyTunes

A song (I wish was written for me)

"I see you standing

Standing on your own
It's such a lonely place for you
For you to be
If you need a shoulder
Or if you need a friend
I'll bee here standing
Until the bitter end

No one needs the sorrow
No one needs the pain
I hate to see you
Walking out there
Out in the rain
So don't chastise me
Or think I, I mean you harm
Of those that take you
Leave you strung out
Much too far
Baby-yeah

Don't ever leave me
Say you'll always be there
All I ever wanted
Was for you
To know that I care"

Rocket Queen
Guns N' Roses

19 years old

Today I turn 19 years old.
The last year of teenager they say... Maybe that can turn out to be a relief! Who knows...
I can only wish for more peace of mind and perhaps even happiness in my life... although that´s something you have to work throughout all your life.
I also wish I could be more calm and less worried about things from now on... maybe even being more impulsive and less rational (if that´s possible).
Anything apart from that, I don´t want to change. I love myself, and besides not getting any kind of recognition, I´ll stick to my beliefs until someone can finally understand me.
Well... let´s just wait and see what my 19 years old are to bring...

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Now playing: Maximo Park - Karaoke Plays
via FoxyTunes

"Everyone I come across, in cages they bought
They think of me and my wandering, but I'm never what they thought
I've got my indignation,
but I'm pure in all my thoughts
I'm alive..."

Guaranteed
Eddie Vedder


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Now playing: Eddie Vedder - No Ceiling
via FoxyTunes